Do you ever get in the habit of sin? I can say that I do that. I know it’s not a good thing but that’s usually a sign of falling back into an addiction. I start justifying my sin saying it’s ok because it’s not as bad as it was before.
You know you’re not supposed to do something and yet you do just a bit of it and think I didn’t do the full thing so it’s ok. It’s like an alcoholic who think he can get over alcholism by drinking just one drink a day. Then that one drink leads to two then three and so on. We usually have a ‘good reason’ for that one drink then another reason for the second one and next thing you know you’re back into that habitual sin.
As a recovering addict I know that to get over an addiction one has to completely stop. Temptation can be very strong and it really plays with your mind. You’ll feel better and just this once my mind always tells me that but my heart is like NOOOOOO!! Some days my mind is stronger than my heart and other days my heart is stronger than my mind but all in all I always have trust in God.
I trust that God will guide me out of temptation, guide me out of the troubled situations I put myself in. God permitted me to live certain things in my life and now looking back I can see some positivity in my negativity.
Last night I went to confession when I really didn’t think I needed to. Yet God was calling me to go so I obeyed. I had a good confession and talked about things that I had no idea I was going to talk about. The priest I confessed to knows me quite well so it was nice to have this conversation. After confession I just felt so shameful and burdened and really hurt even though I knew I was forgiven.
All I could do after that was go to my room and cry. I had a really nice cry and a good chat with God. I was really frustrated with myself for letting myself think that I wasn’t in need of confession and I was frustrated that I sinned so much and would simply justify it.
To take my frustration out in a healthy way I went out for a swim. This was probably one of the best swim I ever had. Swimming is how I take out my frustrations out and it’s been working really well for me.
How do you take out your frustrations?