Chillin’ with God

A very relaxing morning prayer I had today. Yesterday I woke up late and completely missed morning prayer and I can say that it actually affected my day. This showed me how important chillin’ with God in the morning really is. But this morning I did something different. Usually all the community gathers in the chapel and we pray morning prayer (breviary) but since I was alone in the chapel this morning (one guy decided to sleep in and the other 2 aren’t home) I decided to journal. I used to journal daily but since I moved here I completely stopped.

I al1a035e6b7024ccd06521acfa661eec57ways felt like journaling brings me in a deep sense of prayer, an intimate time with God. We talked about many things and I brought Him many of my worries. I’ve been having this conflict with God’s will for me and my job. Morally yes they go together but I feel like God is calling me elsewhere.
I really don’t want to leave my job because I haven’t even been here a year and I also love what I do (even though most of the time I don’t know what I’m doing). We also have a few events coming up in the archdiocese that I have planned so I don’t want that to fall through. 

In this prayer time I sensed that God was saying Yes I called you somewhere else but I want you to blossom here first. When I got that I felt so relived, I’m not here for nothing. There’s a reason why I’m here and I am fulfilling a purpose. God is awesome. As I’m writing, the song Lord, I Need You started playing and it’s fitting with what I’m talking about. fa9c95d0dd1e46c63963b659de7cbcb0

Lord, I Need You by Matt Maher

Lord, I come, I confess
Bowing here I find my rest
Without You I fall apart
You’re the One that guides my heart

Lord, I need You, oh, I need You
Every hour I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You

Where sin runs deep Your grace is more
Where grace is found is where You are
And where You are, Lord, I am free
Holiness is Christ in me

Lord, I need You, oh, I need You
Every hour I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You

Teach my song to rise to You
When temptation comes my way
And when I cannot stand I’ll fall on You
Jesus, You’re my hope and stay

Lord, I need You, oh, I need You
Every hour I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You

You’re my one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You

I’m currently learning this song on the guitar and I eventually want to learn it on the piano.

And a side note, I’m still praying for vocations.
God please guide those discerning vocation so that they may learn to better serve and love you. Also bless those who have been living out their vocation. Continue guiding us closer to your heart of love and mercy. God I don’t want to love you as I loved you yesterday, I want to love you more than I loved you yesterday.

(I need to get back to work now)

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One thought on “Chillin’ with God

  1. Hi Celine. Nice post. I think journalling is important too. I’m also trying to discern God’s will for my life so I could relate somewhat. And also it is good that you are praying about those considering vocations or in vocations. Tom (from ecatholichat)

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