You know when you have a friend but not the friend you see every week. The friend that you see maybe once a year and yet when you meet up it’s like you’re the best of friends. She knows about my struggles and my road of recovery and she said she’s been getting to understand it more because I’m blogging about it. That being said, she really opened up about some of her own struggles. She said that if I (Céline) can write about it then she can open up to me.
At first she was just asking me questions about my blog, then questions about certain posts and eventually about recovery. I knew she wanted to talk about something in particular but I didn’t want to force it out of her.
As time went on she said something like I’m tired of beating around the bush, I wanted to hang out with you for a specific reason. This is something I’ve been struggling with my whole life and I can’t keep on doing what I’m doing. I need your help.
I was shocked that she would trust me so much with the struggle she shared. I mean, since I’ve opened up, others have been opening up to me. This is a great blessing and I would even say it’s a grace and a road of healing.
Because I’ve been reading about the different types of addictions and different approaches on recovery I was able to share an article I had read not too long ago. The Stages of Porn Addiction Yes this is about a pornography addiction but change the word porn to any addiction and it’s fitting.
I really enjoyed the part where they described the differences between the three stages. I can very much relate to that and I knew that my friend could too. There are different challenges and struggles in these three stages.
I remember being in my friends shoes. I wanted to tell someone but was too prideful to seek this help. As soon as I sought help I was on the road to recovery.
Now, I beg you, if you struggle with habitual sin please tell someone. Get an accountability partner, someone you can trust, someone you can talk to about anything and everything at any hour and most important someone who loves God.
Having that basic common interest of God is important. Without God my road to recovery would of headed no where. And this is even talked about in 12 steps. Step two is acknowledging that there is a Higher Power and this Higher Power is most definitely God.
Take it one moment at a time and if needed seek professional help. I sought professional help and I’m in a much better state now, thanks be to God.
And also, know that you’re not alone. If ever you need someone to talk to feel free to contact me. I’m not an expert but I’m in recovery, I’m learning.
I wish you a God filled recovery.
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