I’ll start by saying that I’m having a very bad week. Things at work have been very stressful and the Internet being down has not been helping with that. I’m not saying that because I’m hooked to the Internet (ok maybe I am just a bit) but I’m saying that because I rely so much on the Internet.
When I’m in the office my work depends on my emails. So when I got to the office knowing we didn’t have Internet all I could do was sit down and think now what?
That’s a great question to ask ourselves, now what? Of course there were many other things I could work on but those weren’t the things I was planning on doing just yet. I’m a list person, start at the top of the list and finish at the bottom of the list. My OCD was going crazy because I couldn’t start at the top of that list but rather had to pick and choose a few things from the list. UGH! NO, one simply just doesn’t do that!
Just let it go, Celine, let it go. Huh, interesting words… Let it go, let it go turn away and slam the door. I don’t care what they’re going to say let the storm rage on. The cold never bothered me anyway.
For those of you who haven’t caught that reference, this comes from Disney’s Frozen movie. But those words actually made me think. Let the storm of my week keep on raging on. There’s always a calm after the storm and I’m very much looking forward to it.
Just as you do not know the path of the wind and how bones are formed in the womb of the pregnant woman, so you do not know the activity of God who makes all things. -Ecclesiastes 11:5
You want to know what I want right now? I want chocolate, cheese (good cheese not cheddar), chips and hot apple cider. Yea, that would great. I think it would be nice to have all this tasty food while fishing. That sounds like my ideal life right now. Have you ever had weird wants? I call those my comfort wants.
This week has been so bad that it has brought me a lot of energy. Maybe I’m just weird but because work has been hmm work… when I get home I just want to be silly, I just want to laugh. I think this is my way of letting go or maybe even hiding my frustrations. If I laugh people won’t see how frustrated I am right?
I’ve been finding it tough, as though I’ve been putting on a facade and yet I know I’m not because I do tell people I’m struggling. They know about it and they help me joke about it.
Whatever is going on in my life right now has a purpose. I can’t see it right now as I’m blinded by my own personal desires but God will show me the reason behind it. And even if I can’t understand the reason behind it I will accept it and move on.
Now to take out a pair of sweats, a comfy shirt, a big blanket and snuggle with my bed. Hopefully I don’t dream of being chased by a serial killer again…. I’ll write about it in the next post (if I remember)
Good night peeps ❤
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