My Promise

I’ve been thinking a lot about my to be godson. He isn’t born yet but I still feel a deep connection with him. He’s definitely a fighter!

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Long story short my sister-in-law’s water broke in week 20 but thankfully she didn’t go in labour. Now, they are staying strong, fighting and celebrating that they made it to week 28! It’s not easy putting trust in God, knowing that we can’t do anything to change the situation other than pray and follow His will with an open heart.

Mathieu will be born a fighter, he will know the struggles of life but he will also learn that we are completely powerless. We need to acknowledge that God is on our side.

Mathieu,

You don’t know me yet but you will soon enough. I have heard so many things about you and I’m excited to meet you.  Continue reading “My Promise”

Babies!

This past weekend I was really lucky because I got to babysit a new born. This boy is not even 2 weeks old and yet he’s already in a foster home, a good foster home. His foster mom is such a holy person and an inspiration to me. I met her through daily mass. I try to go to daily mass on a regular bases and I know that she does the same so eventually we got to know each other. This is how I got to know that she is now fostering 2 boys and they are bother under 2 years old. This must be such a crazy household!!!

On Sunday I was really lucky because she asked me if I could babysit her baby while she went to mass and I agreed whole-heartedly. Maybe this is a sign for my vocation laat-de-kinderen-tot-Mij-komenmaybe it isn’t but when I was holding this baby I kept on thinking about the blindness and carelessness this child has. He completely relies on someone else to take care of him. A great reminder that we have to completely rely on God to take care of us.  Continue reading “Babies!”

A busy week!

This last week was a CRAZY week for me. It all started on November 9th when I drove to one of our isolated communities. It was a really nice drive, no snow, the sun wasn’t in my eyes. All in all it was a great time for me get ready for the week.

I was invited to two of our northern communities to lead youth gatherings. At first I thought I would only have two gatherings and two drop-ins. Boy o’ boy was I wrong! Continue reading “A busy week!”

Me? a mother?

I am loving this week. I was a bit nervous about this week because I wasn’t too sure how to prepare for it. I’m currently in a different community to lead some sort of youth gathering. Our first gathering was on Monday and again we had no idea how many people would show up and even less their age.

For this gathering I mostly planned games, something to make them feel wanted and also a way for them to express whatever they are going through. I think I was having more fun than the youth, haha. I had so much fun and these youth were very welcoming and warmhearted.

The next day we had another gathering but this time we ended with the rosary and mass. And you know how kids are, they like to move around and like to make noise. It was a bit hard to keep them quiet to start the rosary but once we started they got involved and surprisingly stayed quiet.

I was leading the rosary but having a hard time doing so. Not because I don’t know the prayers but because it was s such a deep time of prayer for me. I felt this blanket of peace of me. I did shed a few tears ad was having a hard time pronouncing the words out loud. You know when you have that crying feeling with like this bubble in your throat? Well that’s how it was for me. But it was such an intense moment that I didn’t care about what was going around me. It was me and my God. After the rosary I just had to go outside to take a breath of fresh air. And as soon as I left the church I had a break down. TO me this was a good reminder that prayer is a gift. We have to put the extra efforts in our prayers. Sure it’s easy to repeat the hail Mary 10 times but if your heart isn’t in it then it’s really not worth it.

Experiences like these are a gift from God.

Because of our different likes and dislikes it’s easier to connect with some people over others. But at these two gatherings there were three girls with whom I really connect and I know they felt comfortable with me because they would call me  ‘mom’. For me this was a reminder that to be a mother you don’t need biological kids. Is this a sign from God? I don’t know but I know it is causing me to restart discerning religious life.

Actually it was really funny because I am working with the priest in this community and naturally I would call him Father. So these girls put two and two together and they said that Father was their actual father and I was their mother. They said that they were our children. I thought it was really cute but I also hope that this doesn’t get taken out of context, haha. I don’T have biological kids but I do have my adopted kids. I am always ready to be a mother to those who are in need.

What a scary thought… Me? a Mother? I’m not ready to be a mother…. or am I? Oh too many questions….

-My Catholic Living