Well, it’s been a crazy year! I have to start yet again by apologizing for not keeping up with the blog. I don’t have a good excuse….. Though I thought it would be great to kick it off on my birthday eve (probably on my birthday by the time I finish writing).
Let me catch you up on a few things I have moved back to Canada! Yay! But miss Australia like crazy 😦
One of my many highlights on this mission was when I gave my first Social Justice talk to grade 12 girls. That morning I was blessed to have an hour of personal prayer and I had decided to go to a coffee shop. One of the habits that I had gotten into was revising my talk in prayer every single time I was to give it.
Since I was at a coffee shop in one of the best coffee place in the world (don’t quote me on that) I had to grab a coffee. As I was revising, I had added a few slides to my presentation that really didn’t add much but I just knew it was meant to be there (Don’t tell my supervisors but I didn’t get the new slides approved beforehand). Continue reading “I’m back!”
I have been thinking about myself lately. Who am I as a person? Who am I as a sister? As an aunt? As a daughter? Will I be a good godmother? Who is Céline? Is my name part of my identity?
So many questions…
But these are all important questions since the answers should help me grow in holiness. We should all have the same goal in life, to become a saint but we all have a different path to achieve that goal.
For example, I can tell that my path isn’t the same as my father’s path, we have many differences. He’s the typical farmer, working 20 hour days, never cooking or cleaning, strong as an ox and can chug a beer in less than 15 seconds. I might be exaggerating a bit. And then there’s me, working up north with the people, cooking once or twice a week for the community, cleaning (ugh cleaning my room), definitely not strong as an ox and I don’t drink(thank God). Continue reading “Questioning”
Be who you’re called to be. This is a statement that I try to live by but it’s not easy. Who am I supposed to be?
For so many years I struggled with my weight. I’m not exactly the skinniest person out there and media tries to sell the idea that the skinnier we are the better looking we are. I sadly believed it but didn’t do anything about it. I just thought well I’m overweight which mean I’m unlovable. That it so wrong!!
I was stuck living these lies, oh a fat person can’t do this, a fat person can’t do that. But all of this changed when I started discovering who I really am. We are so much more than our appearance. What defines who we are? I believe we define who we are by God’s grace. Now this can be taken out of context but what I mean with that is God gives us graces and we have to use them.
When I was in high school I was the fat kid in class and this always brought me down. Then university came and I was hanging out with a bunch of people who were accepting. But also during this time I was actually putting effort on my appearance. Continue reading “You are beautiful”
I wanted to share a bit on how I welcomed the new year. As you know I was at a conference during that time of the year. We started the evening with mass and he church was packed full, I don’t think I ever seen a church that was so full. It was a beautiful bilingual mass.
After mass we had a banquet with a really fancy meal. I didn’t know which fork or spoon to use because there were like 4 of each! Note to self always start on the outside and go toward the inside with the utensils. After the meal we had a speeches and a video to present where the next conference will be held. The next one is in VANCOUVER!!! I don’t know if I’ll be able to attend but it’s still pretty cool.
Then the party started! Continue reading “Good Good Father”
A time of anticipation and patience. Christ is coming and there’s nothing you can do to stop Him!! It’s so exciting!!!! But am I ready for His coming? Did I prepare my heart?
For me this advent season has been different because of my situation. Living with priests and all we have morning and evening prayer together and mass almost everyday. This means I got to really reflect on the O antiphons. I’m sure many of you have never heard of the O antiphons but here is a quick explanation of what they are.
The O Antiphons are Magnificat antiphons used at Vespers of the last seven days of Advent in Western Christian traditions. They are also used as the alleluia verses on the same days in the Catholic Mass.
They are referred to as the “O Antiphons” because the title of each one begins with the interjection “O”. Each antiphon is a name of Christ, one of his attributes mentioned in Scripture. They are: Continue reading “O Rex Gentium”
Ok, call me crazy but just follow what I’m saying here. You know when you have a long drive and you’ve been following a car for like an hour on a the highway. Well I don’t know if it’s just me but I tend to build some sort of bond with the other driver. It’s like we are the best of friends just because we are heading the same direction. You just want to give a hug to the other driver. Then the unthinkable happens, the other driver turns somewhere else and you’re not following the other car anymore. This bond that was created is gone and it will never be there again because you never actually met the other person.
This is exactly how it is with people whom we befriend because of a common interest. We talk about the common interest but never about the deeper stuff we are living. For example: when I go swimming (which I do between 3-5 times a week) I talk with the lifeguards and my fellow swim mates. We talk about our personal records, the different strokes and which muscles we want to work on that specific day. But we never talk about the deeper things in our life. We just build on this fake bond that we have. If it wasn’t for meeting up for lap swim that bond wouldn’t be there. Continue reading “Friends with Common Interests”
Do you ever get in the habit of sin? I can say that I do that. I know it’s not a good thing but that’s usually a sign of falling back into an addiction. I start justifying my sin saying it’s ok because it’s not as bad as it was before.
You know you’re not supposed to do something and yet you do just a bit of it and think I didn’t do the full thing so it’s ok. It’s like an alcoholic who think he can get over alcholism by drinking just one drink a day. Then that one drink leads to two then three and so on. We usually have a ‘good reason’ for that one drink then another reason for the second one and next thing you know you’re back into that habitual sin. Continue reading “Moving on”
I am loving this week. I was a bit nervous about this week because I wasn’t too sure how to prepare for it. I’m currently in a different community to lead some sort of youth gathering. Our first gathering was on Monday and again we had no idea how many people would show up and even less their age.
For this gathering I mostly planned games, something to make them feel wanted and also a way for them to express whatever they are going through. I think I was having more fun than the youth, haha. I had so much fun and these youth were very welcoming and warmhearted.
The next day we had another gathering but this time we ended with the rosary and mass. And you know how kids are, they like to move around and like to make noise. It was a bit hard to keep them quiet to start the rosary but once we started they got involved and surprisingly stayed quiet.
I was leading the rosary but having a hard time doing so. Not because I don’t know the prayers but because it was s such a deep time of prayer for me. I felt this blanket of peace of me. I did shed a few tears ad was having a hard time pronouncing the words out loud. You know when you have that crying feeling with like this bubble in your throat? Well that’s how it was for me. But it was such an intense moment that I didn’t care about what was going around me. It was me and my God. After the rosary I just had to go outside to take a breath of fresh air. And as soon as I left the church I had a break down. TO me this was a good reminder that prayer is a gift. We have to put the extra efforts in our prayers. Sure it’s easy to repeat the hail Mary 10 times but if your heart isn’t in it then it’s really not worth it.
Experiences like these are a gift from God.
Because of our different likes and dislikes it’s easier to connect with some people over others. But at these two gatherings there were three girls with whom I really connect and I know they felt comfortable with me because they would call me ‘mom’. For me this was a reminder that to be a mother you don’t need biological kids. Is this a sign from God? I don’t know but I know it is causing me to restart discerning religious life.
Actually it was really funny because I am working with the priest in this community and naturally I would call him Father. So these girls put two and two together and they said that Father was their actual father and I was their mother. They said that they were our children. I thought it was really cute but I also hope that this doesn’t get taken out of context, haha. I don’T have biological kids but I do have my adopted kids. I am always ready to be a mother to those who are in need.
What a scary thought… Me? a Mother? I’m not ready to be a mother…. or am I? Oh too many questions….
-My Catholic Living