Last week I was very tired and decided to sleep earlier than usual. I was laying in bed dozing on and off and finally I was in a deep sleep. This is when I started dreaming about working on a murder case. I had a lead on the main suspect and I didn’t want to tell the others. I decided that I would go find this guy after a good night sleep.
I went to bed and all of a sudden I woke up (and I actually woke up), there was a weird light on the wall, a light that wasn’t usually there. I kept staring at it because if I stared it would disappear right? Then I heard a noise in my living room. He was here, the murderer was here. I couldn’t move because if I moved he would know where I was. I kept looking at that light on the wall as if it had the key to salvation but nothing was happening.
Have you ever woken up from a dream that just felt so real and it’s like you were still part of the dream even though you knew you were awake? I really thought that the light was going to save me from this murderer but how is that even possible? The fact that I couldn’t move made it even worse, it felt as if there was a heavy weight making it impossible for me to get help. I had a hard time breathing like someone was trying to suffocate me.
Experiencing this wasn’t fun but it made me think more about light. The other day I was chatting with a friend and he brought up the fact that God is referred to as Light. This person showed me many referenced about God being light. Continue reading “Light of the World”→
Tonight I feel like a complete failure. We have so many youth in the archdiocese and I wish I could meet all of them and talk about Jesus but I can’t. Why was I gloomy last week? It’s because I got a message from someone telling me that there were three suicides in one of our communities. I did not deal with those news too well. These are not the news you want to hear or even expect to hear.
I might not of known these girls very well but I still know that they were important to many but also to me. All the youth in the Archdiocese of Keewatin-Le Pas have a special place in my heart. They are the reason why I’m here in the north, they have shaped me to be a better woman and taught me to serve our God in an even better way. But it’s when things like this happen, I feel like I am to blame even though I know it’s not my fault.
I was watching a movie with one of my housemates while surfing through Facebook and I saw something new, another suicide. I was devastated, went to my room and shed more tears. We lost four girls in less than a week, why is this happening? One of them was only 10 years old, a tragedy. Continue reading “Help me.”→
I’ll start by saying that I’m having a very bad week. Things at work have been very stressful and the Internet being down has not been helping with that. I’m not saying that because I’m hooked to the Internet (ok maybe I am just a bit) but I’m saying that because I rely so much on the Internet.
When I’m in the office my work depends on my emails. So when I got to the office knowing we didn’t have Internet all I could do was sit down and think now what?
That’s a great question to ask ourselves, now what? Of course there were many other things I could work on but those weren’t the things I was planning on doing just yet. I’m a list person, start at the top of the list and finish at the bottom of the list. My OCD was going crazy because I couldn’t start at the top of that list but rather had to pick and choose a few things from the list. UGH! NO, one simply just doesn’t do that!
Just let it go, Celine, let it go. Huh, interesting words… Let it go, let it go turn away and slam the door. I don’t care what they’re going to say let the storm rage on. The cold never bothered me anyway. Continue reading “Chocolate, Cheese and Fishing”→
Snow at the beginning of October? Yes! Snow at the beginning of October!
The weather has been pretty gloomy, I haven’t seen the sun for over 10 days. It all started with rain. Rain that caused a swimming pool in the yard then it froze leading to ice and snow.
Don’t get me wrong, I really like snow but I prefer snow when the sun is out as well. As I mentioned, it’s been very gloomy, dark and I would even describe it as depressing. Snow, snow, snow and more snow, hey! Let is snow! Let it snow! Let is sno-oh-o!
Winter is not here yet, I refuse to accept that! I’m a strong believer of Fall, a time for pumpkin pie, turkey, stuffing and fresh veggies. This year the fresh veggies are a bit different, we have sweet carrots (because they froze), frozen tomatoes and potatoes that are still in the garden because we can’t get them under all that snow.
Oh tough questions! Here is what I found in my research. If you don’t feel like reading and just want to get straight to the point I suggest you just read the last quote from Forerunner Commentary, makes one think.
Like a madman who throws firebrands, arrows, and death is the man who deceives his neighbor and says, “I am only joking!”Proverbs 26:18-19
Children were mocking and teasing Elisha, and 2 bears came out and mauled them. See 2 Kings 2:23-24
Whoever goes about slandering reveals secrets, but he who is trustworthy in spirit keeps a thing covered.Proverbs 11:13
Be careful about what you say. Don’t say something without thinking. See Proverbs 29:11
No foul word should ever cross your lips; let your words be for the improvement of others, as occasion offers, and do good to your listeners; Ephesians 4:29
Don’t speak foolishness, no innuendo, no swearing or rude jokes, instead be thankful.See Ephesians 5:4
And so blessing and cursing come pouring out of the same mouth. Surely, my brothers and sisters, this is not right.James 3:10
There are six things that the Lord hates, seven that are an abomination to him: haughty eyes, a lying tongue, and hands that shed innocent blood, a heart that devises wicked plans, feet that make haste to run to evil, a false witness who breathes out lies, and one who sows discord among brothers. Proverbs 6:16-19
Spiritual pride, many suffer from it AND they don’t even realize how their spiritual pride is affecting others. By the way, pride is a deadly sin…
When one says things like Salvation won’t come to you because you do this and that… then this person is putting themselves on a pedestal, they are making themselves better than the other person. Remember, when you’re pointing the finger at someone three other fingers are point your direction.
You cannot be half a saint; you must be a whole saint or no saint at all. St. Therese of Lisieux
Actually, someone once said this to me I will keep on bullying as long as I can convert others. In my opinion there is much pride in that statement. Bullying is never right and everyone in their right mind should agree with that. Bullying means taking advantage of someone. Is taking advantage of someone ever a good thing? NO! Never! A bully tries to show others that they are the boss and that they are better than everyone else, they belittle others.
There’s a lot of I in that statement. It’s all about me!
…until I can convert other. Who converts who? Doesn’t conversion come from God? Isn’t conversion a choice that has to come from within? We can help bring conversion but we can’t convert someone. Sounds like this person was trying to take credit for God’s work. Continue reading “Spiritual pride”→
I recently found this blogger and have been encouraged by his writings. This one touched me in a deep way and I’m still trying to figure out why. Tears are a great witness of the faith. Don’t be afraid to show your real tears ❤
Well, this weekend worked out very differently than I thought it would for a few different reasons. The one instance this weekend that I want to share with you, however, was a moment that I had wanted/needed for 8 years. I finally got the chance to attempt to tell my mom just how much I miss her. Honestly, though, it’s not something that I actively think about. No offense to people not like me, but I really don’t like to dwell on anything negative much. Bad memories, hurtful things, horrible experiences, etc… I let them go. Now, that’s not to say that I’ve forgotten about my mom… and I should actually backtrack a bit and mention that my mom passed away in June of 2008, but I don’t go around living my life feeling sorry for myself or anything like that. I know my mom wouldn’t want me to be…
I can’t bare the thought of being in a safe home not needing to worry about my family while everyone in Haiti is preparing to take cover. My heart is completely torn apart.
I really didn’t think I left my heart in Haiti until I went to WYD. Haitians are very patriotic so whenever I spotted one walking around I went out of my way to speak with them in their own language. The more I spoke with them the more I fell in love with the country again. I lost a lot of my Haitian Créole but I could still hold a basic conversation with them.
It was always great to see their reaction!
Eh! Kijan nou ye? Nou byen…. ou pale Kreyol?????
Hey! How are you? We’re fine…. you speak Créole?????
Their reaction was like why is this white woman speaking our language? It just doesn’t make sense! We’ve been caught as we can’t talk in the secret of our language.Continue reading “No rest for Haitians”→
Ok!!!!! I have some super great news for you! It is official! I’m going to Australia in January!!!!!!
As many of you know I’ve been discerning religious life for a while and have many fears about taking the next step. To help me with this I decided (with the help of God) to join something called NET (National Evangelization Team).
This peer to peer, value-driven ministry is very effective because it offers a radical alternative to what is offered by society at present. NET teams bring their own positive stories, struggles, their willingness to listen and relate on a youthful level, this is indispensable.
As a member of NET I will deepen my faith, strengthen my relationship with God all by sharing the Gospel with others. What better way to discern religious life than with other young adults? Continue reading “Australia!!!”→
I wasn’t planning on blogging today but then I had a crazy thought…. Why not?
Have you ever started something and thought this is never going to work, I’m a failure. And then you realize wait it’s actually working, I’m not actually as much of a failure that I thought I was!
I say this because I have never been a runner, I like running but running was never my thing. Two Fridays ago I was sitting in my room, probably watching a funny cat video or something like that and I had this crazy thought why don’t I go for a run? I told you it was a crazy thought!!! I look like a dying chipmunk when I run, not a pretty site. But eh the thought came to mind and I couldn’t shut it down because it was actually a good idea.