Here goes the last push of the my time in the Archdiocese. I do have to say that it will be really hard for me to leave because of all the contacts and good friends I’ve made. My eyes water just to the thought of leaving (who put these onions here?)
Just as I was going to write about the upcoming weeks a song came up and the lyrics made so much sense. Now, I know that many of you know this song by Kenny Rogers, The Gambler, but I’m going to dig a bit in some of the lyrics. I know what I’m about to say isn’t exactly fitting with the rest of the song but eh, it’s what caught my attention.
You got to know when to hold ’em, know when to fold ’em, know when to walk away, know when to run.
This reminds me of God’s will and how sometimes (often) we try to do our own will.
Ego, in my opinion stands for Edging God Out as when we think about ourselves we completely forget about God. This line reminds me of the spirit of discernment. We have to know when to pursue something, when to put it on
the back burner and when to stop. If it’s meant to be God will bring it up again. Know when to run. Run when you know it’s not God’s will as it will only cause disaster.
Every gambler knows that the secret to survivin’ is knowin’ what to throw away and knowin’ what to keep. ‘Cause every hand’s a winner and every hand’s a loser.
Knowing what to throw away and knowing what to keep. If you have a friends that always complains and keeps talking about themselves and you can never share what is on your mind. Is that a throw away or a keep? Continue reading “The Gambler”
Time goes by way too fast! This time last year I was on my way to my first mission house in Haiti. It was in Cap Haitien which meant we had to drive from Port-au-Prince. It was a long drive and I wasn’t feeling too well either. I get car sick…. not a good thing….
I actually didn’t know I got car sick until I went to Haiti so I never took any precautions when it came to that.
My first impression when I got out of the airport in Haiti was ‘man there are a lot of people here’. I was nervous and even scared because I was in an unknown place pretending like I knew exactly what I was doing. Thankfully I was travelling with a religious sister and she actually knew what she was doing because she is from Haiti. She kept taking my hand so I wouldn’t get lost. She gave me a great sense of comfort and belonging. She knew what she was doing and I trusted her. What a great example of trusting God’s will for us. We should trust that God has a plan for each and everyone of us. We have to try our best to know of it and try to follow it. We are not in control of our own lives but how many times have I tried to control things in my own life?
The answer is WAY TOO OFTEN! When we try to control our own lives we forget that there is a Power much bigger than us. We forget that we have a purpose and we forget that we are the result of a single thought of God. If God stopped thinking about us we would cease to exist.
In my life, I often try do things my own way and forget that I should be doing God’s will and not my own. Last Sunday the youth ministry committee organized an afternoon of games for the youth. Inside I was feeling like it wasn’t going too well. There are things that I wanted to change but then someone came up to me and said ‘thank you for not being a control freak’. At first I was really confused because inside I really wanted to change everything because I didn’t feel right. But like someone famous once said….I actually don’t remember who said it… but they said ‘be comfortable with being uncomfortable’.
In this moment I realized that I was trying to control this event and I was taking God out of it. I had a hard time accepting that but it has also taught me a lot.
This whole week I have been struggling a lot with God’s will and my own will. I want to do things but then God says no. Or I don’t want to something and God says ‘ hey you get up and pray’ or ‘stop wasting time on the internet and call a friend’.
Often we see God’s will as something we don’t want to do but we have to do it just to obey Him. Well it’s not always like that. Sometimes God’s will is calling a friend and just having a good conversation. Sometimes God’s will is spending time in silence.
All this to say that God’s will isn’t easy to follow but so worth it. We have to trust that God will protect us and guide us as we journey closer to Him.
How many times have you ignored God’s will?
-My Catholic LIving